Im in it for the Glory. But at least Im in it.

Isn't there any thing more to this moment than me sitting on this bed? Facebook Mobiling? Waiting to make a phone call? Like really? Isn't there something greater?

So the peple in my head were in conference again recently and they postipulated that I may just be in it for the glory. This whole bieng a Hebrew Israelite thing appeals to my dramatic Grandeur side.

To be the last of a dying breed on a mission to save the world. On some old Matrix type shit. I can just hear the movie announcer Guy now......


"IN A WORLD THAT HAS GONE TERRIBLY WRONG......AT HE END OF SOCIETY AS WE KNOW IT......ONE MAN DARED TO BECOME A SOLDIER......FOR GOD!" Que the symphony and the music. And put in a picture of The White House Exploding. EPIC.

Someone told me recently That they think I live in a fantasy world. And I admit, I kind of do. But my philosophy is that we need people who can think in Fantasy terms to create the new world. We need people who don't believe in rules or limitations. Because if you leave it up to those who are grounded in "reality" then wekll live in the same shitty world forever! And it'll get worse!

So what if I'm in it for the glory? I think I've got a good balance. I can be humble and Arrogant. Brash and Loud as well as Quiet and softspoken. So what if I don't believe I can be hurt. So what If I think I'm invincible?

I AM THE GIFT!

Its supposed to be that way.

What makes me so Special? Mr. Durden would not approve::::

Tyler Durden Says

" You are not speacial! You are not a beautiful and unique Snowflake!"

and I like Tyler Durden I really do but I dont buy this bullshit. Not for me. I am special. I am not a Unique Snowflake I am the snowball that started the Avalanche. Ive been special my whole life. I have always had special gifts. I have always had purpose. In an age where all my peers were born haphazardly as a mere byproduct of sexual intercourse, I was brought here to earth on a mission. And I damn well aim to completet that mission.

Let me pause in this ranting a little moment to give you a little perspective. Firstly, my favorite cult classic next to the Matrix just marked its Tenth year anniversary. Thats right. Fight Club.

With some of the best lines in Cinema history. THE FIRST RULE OF FIGHT CLUB IS, WE DO NOT TALK ABOUT FIGHT CLUB!

I had somewhat of a religious experience when I first saw this movie but I'll save that for a later blog post.

Secondly, I was lost but now I am found. I'm always losing myself and this time I was gone for a long time but now I'm angry. Cuz I (again) found out who my worst enemy is. My own damn self. and Imma fight this bastrad tooth and nail till I get what it is that I want. back to my rant.

::Tyler Durden would not approve. and heres why. He would not approve because truthfully, I am Tyler Durden. I am an Urban messiah and a legend in the making and no matter what happens, in the end my name will ring forever. Just like his. The reason he would not approve is because I am organizing my own revolution. Not just joining one. I am adding to a cause even greater than his. I am opening eyes to a bigger picture. A larger reality is unfolding.

Tyler said " If our Fathers were our Models for God then what does that say about us?" In his case this means that he is "God unwanted child". But My fathe/God wants me so this is where we differ Mr. Durden.

I will shine. I will be the truth. Like Jet Li said at the end of his movie.....

I will be the ONE.