The Golden Path

I like to write.

When the feeling is right, it flows from me like water, these words, people say they like. I've been told I'm a good writer, but I've been told I'm good at a lot of stuff. That doesn't help with my future direction any. I would never wish to be less talented. I love being a Jack of all trades.. but now the words of My Big Cousin Faruq float back to haunt me.... "Don't be a Jack of all trades and a Master of none" bleh. That's exactly where I'm at.

I'm a natural at everything but I've never developed a skill to perfection. I just watched a wonderful 10 minute video with my guy, Will Smith. It was a Mash up called "Will's Wisdom" that cut together several interviews of his in order to display his life philosophies and I was inspired, for I saw myself on that screen.

One of my main problems is that I have always known what I wanted to do... and now I don't. I'm afloat in a sea of possibilities. i feel like Paul Mu'adib of Dune when he first entered the Spice Trance. He could see every single possibility every repercussion of every choice and the sheer weight of the future weighed him down.. He could have been crushed. He had to make a choice. Thats my issue. I never made the choice. I see the endings I see the pitfalls, the ruts, the traps.... Maybe I'm looking for Leo's Golden Path....

But the Golden Path is hard to find. Where the other paths are rivers... the Golden Path is A thread. Hard to see. Like a diamond filament tightrope.... Everything inside of me is screaming... make a move....

.....TheGift

Ramblin On a Summer day-ThankMeLater?

Don't you hate when you become the person you used to talk shit about?

I've been blessed on this journey called life to see a bigger picture. It seems like the divine energy doesn't want Me to be close minded because anything I used to hate or talk shit about I've now come full circle to understand and sometimes admire. This revelation only fuels my theory that we only hate things that we despise in ourselves. So now that I'm afloat with no boat and I've lost my holier than thou attitude, what now? If I'm no longer mad at the world what will I do with my rage?

I'm starting to incorporate forced revelation into my life with almost a religious devotion. I figure, if I don't wake myself up then who will right? Everything inside of e is calling for me to leave this continent. My mentor always asks me what am I looking for.... I can never tell him. I'll know when I find it.... But its not here. Its the artist in me. It needs to be moved. I need to shake myself awake.

My Greatest talent is my Ability to learn from scratch or to relearn things that i think I already know. i know that I know enought ot know that i know nothing... You Know? But now that I'm Back at Ground level who will direct me? I don't want to break connectioons with my King.... But No one is where I want to be... No one is who I want to be or is doing what I know I can do.... It's all a little depressing....

I'm right at that Cusp of failure... Not failure at a thing but failure at life. Dead end Job. Worthless Marriage. A spiritual and Mental death looms over me, the likes of which will be difficult to escape. This is the point of rebirth. All I need is a place to be born again.

Whatever I want to do I want it to benefit my nation. At least I know, no matter what I believe personally that my works will benefit the Greater good...

That's me rambling....

\||/ Audibles\||/ Thank Me Now- Drake
\||/ Mandibles\||/ Tofurkey Kielbasa Fajita!
\||/ Readables\||/ The 50th law- Robert Green. Nuff said
\||/Watcheables\||/ Burn Notice....

.....thegift

Can I get A Window seat?

"So, presently i’m standing
Here right now
You’re so demanding
Tell me what u want from me"___Erykah Badu "Window Seat"

My first introduction to "Window Seat" Was my friend Keresten calling me:

" My Ni@@a have you seen that new Erykah Badu Video?"

"Nah I hadnt heard"

"Maaaaaannn I aint even know Sistahs get thicker with age!"

Thats the first phenomenon of the video. Its full blasted nudity. Its Guerilla video strategy ( It was filmed in one take, with no warning in downtown Dallas.) The fact that Erykah seems to have developed a Body since she first came into the game. We all used to think she was just a skinny girl. She had a lil' boy body is what they said. Now she got a 'fatty' and folks are paying attention.

as I was prepared for all of this, by the time I got around to watching the video I could dig a little deeper. My first thoughts are as follows...

WTF is she wearing? Black over coat with a purple hoodie? Whea dey do dat at?

Look at that guy in the red following her. is he part of the script? look he ust gave up picking up her clothes!

Whats with the cap on her head?

Wtf kinda t-shirt is that? was that extra necessary? I heard there was a message here somewhere, is it "What not to wear?"

Ohhhh snap she gone take it off?

Owwwww she gotta booty now!

Haha look at those white folks! They look nervous as hell!

WT? she just got shot?

Whats that blue "blood" say?

Whats Groupthink?.....

Wow....that was thought provoking....

Contrary to some folks beliefs, I'm not into this video for the pornographic aspects. She made a statement. A very strong statement. I don't think this was a cheap thrill for her. I don't think its sole purpose was to put Erykah back on the map, I respect her will to do something different. anytime you break the mold, you will have those who Hate it and those who love it.

"Everybody feel a way about 'Ye but at least yall feel something"___Kanye West

Upon reading the lyrics I see a theme, somewhat that which Kanye West expressed in a lot of his recent songs, Sometimes you just wanna do art. You don't wanna be bothered by the flashing lights, but an artist has a need to be seen. So youre damned if you go and damned if you stay. It's all about finding that perfect balance as an artist.

I hope Badu and Mr. West find that balance. I think andre 3000 found it a long time ago but not many can find it. they are either in the game or out of it.

I enclosed the song but not the provocative video, honeslty I find more value in the song on its own, but please, go and look for the video, I just saw it on Vh1 Soul the other day, so its out there. Is on her official Website as well at>>> http://www.erykahbadu.com/ <<<<>>> http://www.erykah-badu.com/<<<<<

I love her! Imma get me a t-shirt or sum!

Ciao!

...TheGift

At Rest: Photo Blogging

At Rest

So I decided to have another go at my bid as an amateur photographer. I wanted the days photos to have a theme and I found my inspiration as I was walking past a cemetery in Lagrange. "At rest" I liked it and the idea started to take form over the course of the day as I found things that were At rest. Here we find people At Rest. I like this picture because it shows the scope of the entire cemetery (Is everybody in Lagrange buried here?)

Now onto something a little less depressing! As the At rest concept started to gather some steam, I realized that there are plenty of things at rest in a town like Lagrange. In a recession so many things are abandoned. Like a Restaurant per se.

This is the Golden Corral in Lagrange. It was closed before I got here. If this had been Atlanta, someone would have moved in here already but I suppose the Corral is a dying breed. Maybe I should contrast the dead feeling of it with pics of the Cracker Barrel?

This last one is my Favorite pic of the day. I just think it says something poignant about a restaurant when the trash cans look destitute. This place may not be resting. It might be dead.

More from the At rest series at a later date! Ciao!...TheGift

Where do you draw the Line twix the Fat and the Thick?

Yep, this is a promo shot right here for Michaela's blog click the link cuz this whole post is musing about her post At the link: Click it! CLICK!.....I'm waiting....

>>>>>>>>http://divalicious813.blogspot.com/2010/03/ruthless-thoughts.html <<<<<<<<<<< ...ok lets begin. So here's my question "Where do you draw the line between FAT and THICK? One word "GROTESQUE"<<>>In my opinion, plenty of folks are confused. So I can only give you what I think. I think a lot of "Thick" girls are fat and a lot of "fat" girls are disillusioned. I know I know "Ouch that's harsh" but this is the Panorantic view people I call em like I sees em.

I draw the line at "GROTESQUE" fat and OBVIOUS obesity. Lets get in some definitions here:


gro·tesque 

 /groʊˈtɛsk/ Show Spelled[groh-tesk] Show IPA
–adjective
1.
odd or unnatural in shape, appearance, or character; fantastically ugly or absurd; bizarre.

Hmmm.... Bizarre? Yep that's it. I live by the principle of Nature that things that are not natural the human body rejects it. The reason people say "Ewwwww" upon seeing someones brains spilling out of their heads must be because this was something that is out of order, that should never happen. At the sight of this bizarre occurrence we are repulsed, naturally. Whats that got to do with Fat people? Well I'll quote my favorite monologue

"Every mammal on this planet instinctively develops a natural equilibrium with the surrounding environment.But you humans do not......"___Agent Smith from The Matrix

Someone whose body has clearly left the normal natural boundaries of the human condition is immediately viewed as Bizarre. They leave the realm of "Who" and enter the realm of "it" now I try me hardest not to discriminate. But damn. Sometimes its unnecessary for you to carry 200 pounds of extra....you.

My standard is a life standard. Someone is Bizarre to me who does not value life. Its been proven that those who are grotesquely over weight live shorter more laborious lives. Their arteries were never designed to pump that much blood. I enjoy equilibrium. I enjoy balance. any opposing forces to equilibrium and balances must be challenged.

Now, some women are actually bigger, withing their bone structure and all that, but these People owe it to themselves to discover what their own individual health to weight ratio is.

These are just my thoughts though..maybe I'll come up with a politically correct article and write all this again so nobody gets offended.

actually we're in America now so pretty much any weight goes. I just don't want people involved in the "Big is Beautiful" (and it is) Movement to get carried away cuz you know whats really beautiful? Health is Beautiful.

...TheGift

P.s. All that to the side... What about African Women? I fully intend to marry an African woman and they Are all "thick" so what about them? My answer there is that there is a balance. Black women in General from Brazil to America to African are all Bigger than the Average woman. I just say bring your body into equilibrium with itself. Once that is done. You won't be "Over-weight" you'll be the 'Right" weight.

...Ciao!

Che Guevara and The NUmber 39

Who is Che?



I have always asked this question.

Is he a man? Is he a legend? Whazzup with the T-Shirts?

So I recently began to study and Absorb Che. Che The Mighty. Che The Magnificent.
Che The Impregnable. Che The Thinker. Wow. CHe was Huge. and Now He is even Bigger.

Now I question why is it that the Pan africans who Taught and Trained me never
told me to study Guevara. His ody of literature and Revolutionary thought is ingenius
Clearly before his time. But At the proper time. For who of the Mightiest revolutionaries
Wasnt before his time? Thats our job. To lead time. To Be recognized after we cease to Fight
For the Fight that so Many died for......

I feel connected to Che. Not because of race or ideology but by the Number 39.

Why is this umber so important you ask?
Martin Died at 39
Malcolm Died at 39

We learned as Hebrews that the signifigance of this number is its relationship to
the next number. 40. Every Great Idea or society or civilization BOOMS after its 40th year
and these revolutionaries were Stopped before that mark.
and Then I read Che's age at death. 39.

I know some Revolutionaries who made it past that age and are still fighting that fight though.

I intend to become one of thier number.

I read the speech that Fidel Castro Gave at the Funeral Services of Che Guevara
and he spoke of Che Being of Impeccable Charachter and Extraordinary Strength.
Truly, Che was a Super Human who trancended the Pitfalls and Downfalls of Man.
His record of service was clean. and When He could have taken a cushy Office Job, He did not.

Che Is a Hero. And Im not even done reading his books yet

.....TheGift

Thoughts and #LowKey review on: Why Your DNA Isn't Your Destiny

Thoughts and #LowKey review on: Why Your DNA Isn't Your Destiny
By John Cloud
“Darwin was a misguided White Man who, upon discounting those things he could not see, hear nor understand, just started Making Stuff up.” ____TheGift

If Scientists had Gangs, that Statement might get me shot. Alas they do have shots amongst the Doctors but their Hippocratic Oath prevents them from forcing “Death by Needle” (AKA H1N1 Vacc.) upon me so HA!

In all seriousness though, In conversing with My Mentor This Morning he directed me to this article and asked to know what I thought about it, In relation to My own personal development. I later thought instead of calling him and telling him that I’d just turn it into a Blog post and share My thoughts with ALL (5) of You!

I begin:

We are all flawed. No I don’t believe we are flawed cuz Jesus said so. I really doubt he meant it like that. We are Flawed because we were born into a flawed society. We are plagued with and and Even and it wears heavily on us all as individuals.

Enter Epigenetics (Here is where the Darwin Comment becomes relevant) Cloud says:

“At its most basic, Epigenetics is the study of changes in gene activity that do not involve alterations to the genetic code but still get passed down to at least one successive generation. These patterns of gene expression are governed by the cellular material — the epigenome — that sits on top of the genome, just outside it (hence the prefix epi-, which means above).”


To get to the point, Epigenetics proves that Your GENES can Be Affected through your DIRECT HERIDITARY LINE!

This Trumps Darwinian Theory which states that it takes MANY MANY years in order for Genes to Change By Natural Selection. The Changes in this Article have been Observed in as little as 40 years! #TAKETHATDARWIN

This means that things that your Father or Mother did when they were your Affects the basic code of your Genetic structure. Your Father Smoked? You’re at risk for Obesity. Wow. I’ll let you read this AMAZING article yourself (Read more: http://www.time.com/time/health/article/0,8599,1951968-1,00.html#ixzz0g155ltKG) but here are a few of my personal thoughts:

1. The First thing that came to Mind when reading about Genome changes through Generation and its effect even on Memory was that Yahwah le Yisrael has always been know to afflict several Generations with the same Punishment, thereby placing an entire Peoples Genetic Memory Under specific Stressors in order to Change their Gene Pattern. Wow.


A. Subsequently this means that In order to lift these specific Genetic Markers we would then have to Undergo several Generations of Redevelopment in order to return to our original state of Being and Greater(Hopefully having retained the Proper Memory Markers so that we don’t genetically forget why we were being Punished)

B. This also points as many other things do To Our Yah being (Of Course) The Master of Science. Him having laid these laws in advance and us (Mainly these Darwinist Scientists) Finding out all late.

2. On a Personal Note having seen what the Article says about direct Hereditary lineage, I am personally prone to My own Fathers Habits and Behavior Patterns. So like The Bene Gesserit from Dune I find it necessary through discipline and training to 1 by 1 remove all “lesser” Traits for the good of my whole Lineage.

3. What if Tiger Woods has a Genetic Predisposition to say Stupid things, Hold Stupid Press Conferences and Try and *Weezy Voice* F*CK URRYYY (white) GURL IN THA WORLD?

A. Lets Examine: His Daddy didn’t Like Black Women (He Married an Asian)

B. He’s never been vocal about Himself (His Pops don’t talk Much either)

C. His Father Cheated( I don’t Know if Tiger So much “Cheated” as he “Smashed Everything with a Vagina that wasn’t Nailed Down”


I’m #Just Sayin. Think About it. Blame it On Epigenetics? Maybe His DNA was his destiny? Maybe He’s just weak? Maybe the Establishment set Him up…to Fall….In several Women….Repeatedly…..

Or Maybe He’s Just Dumb (My Personal Favorite)

Whatever it was, I won’t let My genetic Markers Create My Path and Neither Will My Sons.

…..TheGift

Im in it for the Glory. But at least Im in it.

Isn't there any thing more to this moment than me sitting on this bed? Facebook Mobiling? Waiting to make a phone call? Like really? Isn't there something greater?

So the peple in my head were in conference again recently and they postipulated that I may just be in it for the glory. This whole bieng a Hebrew Israelite thing appeals to my dramatic Grandeur side.

To be the last of a dying breed on a mission to save the world. On some old Matrix type shit. I can just hear the movie announcer Guy now......


"IN A WORLD THAT HAS GONE TERRIBLY WRONG......AT HE END OF SOCIETY AS WE KNOW IT......ONE MAN DARED TO BECOME A SOLDIER......FOR GOD!" Que the symphony and the music. And put in a picture of The White House Exploding. EPIC.

Someone told me recently That they think I live in a fantasy world. And I admit, I kind of do. But my philosophy is that we need people who can think in Fantasy terms to create the new world. We need people who don't believe in rules or limitations. Because if you leave it up to those who are grounded in "reality" then wekll live in the same shitty world forever! And it'll get worse!

So what if I'm in it for the glory? I think I've got a good balance. I can be humble and Arrogant. Brash and Loud as well as Quiet and softspoken. So what if I don't believe I can be hurt. So what If I think I'm invincible?

I AM THE GIFT!

Its supposed to be that way.

I adore her mind

I want to tell her that her mind is her greatest asset and that she should guard it with her life. For her and her daughter’s sake, she should learn how to control her mental processes. I want to tell her that, to worry about things that are outside of her control is futile and will give her ulcers, because that leaves so many things to worry about. I want to tell her that, her life is far too precious to be shortened by something as trivial as money worries. I want to tell her that, no man should ever be able to cause her grief or pain because so few men are worth her time, that it is highly likely that the man who is causing the grief and pain is not one of them.

I want to tell her so much, but she’s gone. I cannot see her. When I speak she hears me as if I am muffled. She sees me through a mist. She knows that I am the truth, but she believes that the things standing between her and I are also truth, when they are not. What the world has told her is truth is not. Drake thinks that truth is money, cars, clothes and hoes, he is mistaken. Doctors think truth is their western medicine, created by Hippocrates, King of hypocrites. They are mistaken……Let that though trail…..

I am a teacher by nature. I took a test once that said so. The test was a part of my college courses and it measured my learning style. What it said about my type was that we absorb information faster and better than others in our peer group and that we re-enforce this information in our minds by teaching it to others or tutoring others. Go figure.

I had a friend once with whom I shared my insight, but her learning style severely clashed with my teaching style and my learning style didn’t suit her because she no longer had anything for me to learn. Furthermore se balked when she discovered that I thought of her as a student. I wasn’t sure what she wanted from me, but I wish her the best and hope that she finds what she seeks. She just can’t find it from me.

I dug up my favorite blogger’s (Allaisia Hanan- www.whoissheandwhyshouldwecare.wordpress.com) phone number a few days ago because I was looking for inspiration. Who knows if she even remembers giving me her number cause I only used it like twice and our respective lives have been in a whirl wind since then so I almost expected her not to remember me, but she did. Cause she’s a boss like that.

So when I told her that I wanted her to inspire me, she said she was fresh out of inspiration. She told me that I had caught her on the absolute worst day for inspiration possible and she was sorry she couldn’t help. So what was I to do? I asked how I could help. As we pressed on into our conversation it molded itself into a mutually inspirational experience. An it was wonderful. Why am I telling you this? Cuz this is what I do. I strive, achieve and succeed so that others can do the same. I try and lead by example (which doesn’t always work) and I keep it pushing. I was taught that I am a Son of the Most High, the light at the end of the tunnel and in part, my destiny is to be Mankind’s last great hope for redemption. With all that weight on my shoulders, it’s good to find someone who says I’m doing a good Job.


\/Watchables: Watch “The Secret”. It’ll blow ya mind
\/Readables: Read Dune by Frank Herbert I read it when I was 13. I started it again. Its still effing awesome.
\/Munchables:Go to Kroger and try some vegan cookies from their Health food section.
\/Audibles: Forever Young by Jay-Z off The Blueprint 3

Good luck kids. God speed.
…TheGift