#SecretDreams Let's Play.....

Soooooo me and My Brothers have a secret dream.... a Dream of Music,Passion and adventure. We're gonna do something that we've never seen anyone do before and we might get disowned for it, but I feel like as long as I have them, we'll be good.

You know how I'm really into Anime and stuff? Well I think Anime is a gateway drug to Japanese culture cuz now, from listening to the Theme music, We're into Japanese Music. We want to learn to play our favorite anime themes. It's gonna be sooooooo epic. Nothing to serious. 15-20 covers.I love everything about Japan so this right here is gonna be fun! I'm learning Guitar. Yosafe is on Keys and Adam is our Drummer. Idk if Yoash will want any part of this, he might be too cool for his shit. BUT I"M NOT! I told Yosafe that if we get really good then we can go play in Japan. Think about it, how many Black Japanese cover bands are there?>>>>>>>Zero. We in there!

#SecretDreams

\||/Watcheables>>>>Naruto and Naruto Shippudden
\||/Audibles>>>>>

\||/Mandibles>>>>BBQ Tofu
\||/Readables>>>> Rolling Stone Magazine
\||/Actionables>>>>> Go swimming. IT's SUMMER!

....TheGift

WHO Dat, WHO DAT? J. Cole lyrics

Yeah-It's that serious. Check his lyrics. They Mean. I aint never really posted lyrics on tis site but... They been runniing through my head all morning soooo. Here:

Who dat who dat, the nigga you been waitin 4.
I mean the shyt was all bad just a week ago.
Rappers is bull shittin. Fuck it,
I ain’t hatin though
Cuz Now a nigga hot enough to
fuck with one of satin’s hoes.
& She cant tell the difference.
I been through hell conditions.
Wishin for air conditions
feelin God was never listenin.
Now I’m on television
And did I fail to mention?
Your bitch is tired of missionary,
boy you failed the mission.
Speakin of positions Just witness
how i elevated. Real niggas celebrate it, finger-fuck
whoever hate it. My life accelerated,
but had to wait my turn. But then i redecorated,
that means my tables turn. Live life, might as well,
only way to learn. is try and fail clientele
the only way to earn. so if you’re sellin crack..
or if you’re sellin rap. make sure it’s mean
so them fiends keep on trailin back.

(chorus)

The Mind state of a winner.
When you thinkin bout summertime
i’m thinkin bout the winter.
When you thinkin bout breakfast,
I’m heatin up my dinner. I was plottin this
moment back when yall was ridin spinners.
Now I’m a menace. God as my witness, with this pen I’m insane, yup.
Hungry like the nigga who ain’t got the taste of fame yet.
Cloud told me “ain’t you roc? well where the fuck yo chain at?”
Guess it’s somethin like your girl, nigga it aint came yet.
The man make the chain chain dont make the man
how many niggas do we know with hella ice but yet they lame
the cloth from which we came me and them is not the same
Like we all headed to spain, they took the boat i took the plane.Dang
That boy sick.Now Hoes on his joystick. Heatin up like may weather dog
i’m on that floyyd shyt.
Boy stick, to ya day job.
Said you was hot but they lied.
Is that ya girl? Well I just g’d her/jeter no a rod.

(chorus)

(Andre 3000)
Now who else wanna fuck with hollywood cole?!

The lil engine that could
this lil nigga is good
rappers claiming they sick i heal niggas for good
a couple of yall aint took a field trip to the hood
ay me im fresh prince im will smith to the hood Baby!
aint sayin names but we not the same
all that money and the fame dont change the fact that u lame
might wanna grab you a chain wanna tip up your hat
might wanna purchase some game homie your shit is so wack!!!
i got my finger on the trigger tell that nigga hold datt
boy im picture perfect baby you can check the Kodak
hey so anything you can do i can do better
and you chick you can screw i can get wetter
im young black get to live my life on the run!
bet ya bottom dollar before im done
they im the oneeeeeee
yeah nigga im the onee HA!!

J. Cole Does it again! BB GUN is a friggin Genius

So FamI don't know ifyall following the Career of one J. Cole but this kid is the new golden child of Hip-Hop. There ain't nobody touching his style/lyrics/presence/Label(RocNation). I love a cat that plays the gamewell. No Scandals, no rap Beefs just pure skill and the right mentor.

The Golden Path

I like to write.

When the feeling is right, it flows from me like water, these words, people say they like. I've been told I'm a good writer, but I've been told I'm good at a lot of stuff. That doesn't help with my future direction any. I would never wish to be less talented. I love being a Jack of all trades.. but now the words of My Big Cousin Faruq float back to haunt me.... "Don't be a Jack of all trades and a Master of none" bleh. That's exactly where I'm at.

I'm a natural at everything but I've never developed a skill to perfection. I just watched a wonderful 10 minute video with my guy, Will Smith. It was a Mash up called "Will's Wisdom" that cut together several interviews of his in order to display his life philosophies and I was inspired, for I saw myself on that screen.

One of my main problems is that I have always known what I wanted to do... and now I don't. I'm afloat in a sea of possibilities. i feel like Paul Mu'adib of Dune when he first entered the Spice Trance. He could see every single possibility every repercussion of every choice and the sheer weight of the future weighed him down.. He could have been crushed. He had to make a choice. Thats my issue. I never made the choice. I see the endings I see the pitfalls, the ruts, the traps.... Maybe I'm looking for Leo's Golden Path....

But the Golden Path is hard to find. Where the other paths are rivers... the Golden Path is A thread. Hard to see. Like a diamond filament tightrope.... Everything inside of me is screaming... make a move....

.....TheGift

This Resume is kicking My ass

I have been "Writing" this Damn resume forever!

WTH is wrong with me when it comes to Getting a J-O-B???

Just the thought of working for other people physically repulses me. Bile rises to the Back of my throat. My Father did this to me. "Do for Self" was his motto. there used to be little pins, the type no one wears anymore. Little "Do for Self" Buttons on peoples Jackets.

When I got older my Father vehemently denied that he discouraged working for "The Man" and that's when I realized a new truth I stumbled across....

It has to do with Saying and Doing. See My Abba always SAID that the most important thing was to work for self. He never SAID the most important thing was to WORK. So when My entrepreneurial efforts failed and I didn't want to get a "Real Job" he got mad at me. He was frustrated and didn't understand that the full weight of my vehemence towards Working a J-O-B was at least partially on him. I never thought it was extra important to just Work. I alwys worked for for with a cause or If I employed myself, I worked because I liked doing a craft. My work ethic whilst in these ventures is great, but If I don;t have something to work for, I'm fucked.

He had a conversation with me that made me realize where I fucked up at. I wasnt observant enough. My Father was a street Merchant for most of my life. He made good money at it till the money dried up. When He was a street Merchant I recall those as the good old days. I was accustomed to handling a business at a bvery early age. But when the Merchant life dried out, he kept working and I never paid attention. I guess Hindsight is 20/20.

Part of the reason I don't have a "Job" is because I know that I can provide whatever dough I need By myself but I don't believe in Me nymore. thats Why i'm writing this Dumb ass resume. i've got all the skills and experience to start my own restaurant anywhere in the world. yet I'm trying to cookfor other people. WTF is wrong with Me?

...TheGift

Ramblin On a Summer day-ThankMeLater?

Don't you hate when you become the person you used to talk shit about?

I've been blessed on this journey called life to see a bigger picture. It seems like the divine energy doesn't want Me to be close minded because anything I used to hate or talk shit about I've now come full circle to understand and sometimes admire. This revelation only fuels my theory that we only hate things that we despise in ourselves. So now that I'm afloat with no boat and I've lost my holier than thou attitude, what now? If I'm no longer mad at the world what will I do with my rage?

I'm starting to incorporate forced revelation into my life with almost a religious devotion. I figure, if I don't wake myself up then who will right? Everything inside of e is calling for me to leave this continent. My mentor always asks me what am I looking for.... I can never tell him. I'll know when I find it.... But its not here. Its the artist in me. It needs to be moved. I need to shake myself awake.

My Greatest talent is my Ability to learn from scratch or to relearn things that i think I already know. i know that I know enought ot know that i know nothing... You Know? But now that I'm Back at Ground level who will direct me? I don't want to break connectioons with my King.... But No one is where I want to be... No one is who I want to be or is doing what I know I can do.... It's all a little depressing....

I'm right at that Cusp of failure... Not failure at a thing but failure at life. Dead end Job. Worthless Marriage. A spiritual and Mental death looms over me, the likes of which will be difficult to escape. This is the point of rebirth. All I need is a place to be born again.

Whatever I want to do I want it to benefit my nation. At least I know, no matter what I believe personally that my works will benefit the Greater good...

That's me rambling....

\||/ Audibles\||/ Thank Me Now- Drake
\||/ Mandibles\||/ Tofurkey Kielbasa Fajita!
\||/ Readables\||/ The 50th law- Robert Green. Nuff said
\||/Watcheables\||/ Burn Notice....

.....thegift

FOUR LOKO!::: REVELATIONS OF THE ALCOHOLIC NATURE

Ok so I figured something out last night, But first let me walk u through my weekend thus far....

Friday night We snowballed our way into a house party at the crib. Yeah, cuz nobody saw it coming. What did I eat for dinner? Nothing. What did I drink for dinner? Four Loko. Y'all oughta know that Four Loko ain't what you want. After a can of That Spit you'll wanna wash it back wit some Jet engine fuel because you'll beeeeeee: ALL THE WAY TURNT UP! What is it? A 32 oz can of Alcoholic deliciousness that's a mix between Soda and Koolaid and Satans tears. Shared told me it was the Devil's Koolaid. I had 1 and a half. I woke on the Futon looking for my dam ears.

I'm told after waking Up that I gave one wonderful lap dance last night. #Win. Also apparently I had a Megaphone swinging from a doorway screaming YEAH! While Bubbling on someone.

Whole night = Win

We woke up the next morning around 9:30 with people strewn all across the house looking for the answers to important questions (Where did that Patrone come from? Why is it empty? Whose earring is this? Is that a Mcdonalds apple pie? #Munching)
So Bias wakes the band up then says to me "We might need u to shoot this video" Whaaat!?? I'M STILL DRUNK! We get to little 5 points and I'm still leaning but the shoot goes fine. Finished it at the crib. It was Hot as Rabid monkey balls so I lost my shirt. Got done before 1:00 and I was still tipsy!

I left again and came back and took a nap!

Night #2

Ok so what's the agenda for Saturday night?

House party for food (Vegan? Doubtful)

Then the Club where we'll be in VIP and all THE drinks will be free...... Dangerous.

TO BE CONTINUED!

NEXT ISSUE: Jaggerbombs::Snowbunnies::: Amazonian Model Chicks::::Poetry:::::And Mooorrre

I had a revalation!

....TheGift