Put it all on hold... Then Unleash the Foodgates

I haven't been writing. My flow has been off lately. I dedicated the better part of the last month to work and love. While love does sustain me, it doesn't sustain all of me. Nevertheless, I don't regret my decision not to write. The only thing I may regret is that the object(s) of my affections don't know what I put on hold for them. Maybe if they knew, they would value the time we spent together more......

Back to Basics

But getting back to basics.... I've come to dread planning. planning has become the bane of my existence really because the best laid plans of mice and men can never hold up to the plans of the universe we inhabit. So many times I have laid plans that crumble. But the fear of starting is what holds most people back from greatness (Dishwashing Philosophy) So what do I do? Do I just freewheel it? Just keep putting irons in the fire until one yields the desired results?

Well whatever it is, its gotta be today. Time waits for no man....

This is a personal ramble.... so don't get excited, like theres a point coming or something.

.... There isn't.

....TheGift

Revelation: I am NOT in the pursuit of happiness!

Yeah, I lnow how the title sounds, I can hear you now " You don't want to be happy? Everyone wats to be happy!" Setttle down, let me finish, Kanye. Dang.

I as talking to a dear friend of mine who used to be a part of my nationalistic movement. Her reasons for no longer taking active part are her own and I'm ok with them, to each their own and all that, however the way she ended the conversation started me gears to rolling.

To spare you (and her) the details of it all she basically said that she enjoys doing what she WANTS to do because it makes her happy and if to achieve that happiness she had to leave the movement then so be it.

That's when I realized, I don't do anything because it "Makes me happy". I'm a Black nationalist. First by birth, then by choice. i have found a Black nation that is actively fulfilling the goals of black nationalism in such a way that Carmichael never dreamed and King only imagined and I am proud of that. Through all of the spiritual paths I have travelled, black nationalism has been my center, my anchor, that one piece of myself that I won't change.

It's not that I'm not for the upliftment of all peoples all over the world, I really am. I just firmly believe that the upliftment of OUR people is a social responsibility that will eventually give me and us the ABILITY to uplift the entire world.now, Back to happiness...

I am not in pursuit of "Happiness" the way most people see it. I'm in pursuit of FREEDOM. Freedom for ALL of the African Diaspora. Spiritual freedom, emotional freedom, financial freedom, Freedom to build in the image and likeness of Yah. THAT is what I pursue. I can honeslty say that if I had to DIE on this path to achieve that goal I would.

This road is hard. I can't sugar coat it. People have died trying to achieve what I want(Marcus Garvey, Malcolm X, Martin Luther King jr.) , people have lost their fortunes and some, even their sanity but I won't quit.

I don't expect ti to get easy on the way. My only comfort or "Happiness" will be in lnowing that I have made things better for my people and my future generations. If Happiness should find me, I welcome it with open arms! But I'll put it like this:

If Someone made me an offer, to go to "hell" for 10,000 years and be tortured everyday to the brink of my own sanity, in exchange for the Freedom of my people or to live a "Happy" life, never really accomplishing anything but my own basic survival, I'd go for option "A".

Peace,

.....TheGift

LEAVE BRETT's PENIS ALONE!

WARNING: IF YOU ARE OFFENDED BY THE WORD "PENIS" OR ANY OF IT's SLANG SYNONYMS...... YOU SHOULD GROW UP BEFORE READING THIS!

Leave Brett Favre’s Penis alone. Seriously. Brett’s weenis has done nothing to you besides sit shotgun through one of the most amazing careers in the history of, Ever. Brett Favre’s Penis is like an observer to a continous rewriting of the history of football as we know it.

Who was there accepting MVP for 3 years in a row? Were you? Probably not. You know who was? Brett Favre’s Ding-dong. Who was there for that Amazing super bowl win? Brett’s Snowzer. That’s who. Who was there Monday night when Brett completed his 500^th career pass???? WHO? BRETT FAVRE’S PENIS WAS THERE! Getting no credit! Whatsoever.

So what if his dinga ling wanted a little shine huh? So what if His thing thing wanted some action from the media? He probably wanted an interview from that reporter! Brett Favre’s penis could have been trying to so sign this uppity b*tches autograph and she up and leaks his confidential photos to the internet. FOR SHAME! How dare she!

I think before we pass judgment on Mr. Favre OR his Penis, we should remember that Sexting is not illegal and is quite popular now and it is well expected of any American to do things that are popular. Like “Coming out” or buying silly Bands. So let’s do a little less judging and a little more sexting!

Cheers.

…..TheGift

Oh my poor blog, I've neglected thee so

I know I've neglected you little ranters. Poppa's been busy sticking it to the man (#pause). Howeveer, I know that is no excuse for me ignoring the small contingent of the internet that actually reads my little diatribes (about 1/10000000000000th) so I'll throw you a bone. You tell a about me, and I will give you one post per week. Just like a normal blog, ok? Every Wednesday I'll be posting, hopefully my readership will acrue. I will also be doing weekly videos. That's all for now, gimme feedback!

....TheGift

Longevity in writing

Out of all the Talents and skills I acquire, I see longevity in language and writing. Being an author is not an uncommon dream, however, commonly people don't do what it takes to become that. It's a serious weeding process. The first obstacle is the actual writing. which is every author's worst enemy. We procrastinate. We run, we edit too much we criticize and we do all of this on page 1.

Once the writing is (finally) done comes the fun part of selling your book. Those fairy tale dreams of becoming America's favorite author and claiming your 15 minutes of fame are frankly unrealistic. So after your hopes and dreams are dashed you have to figure out how to make money off of your hard earned works.... A frustrating process all in all to say the least. However, I could see me doing that.

The measure of a product to me: Is it believable? is this product good enough to risk it all and look like a fool for? Would You give anything for this dream?

If the answer is yes, then Push it. That's how I'll push my books. Till every store is carrying them and I'm getting orders online, nonstop.

.....TheGift

Why Pretend?

I had an almost sort of Chance encounter with a Woman the other day.

She was.....decent. (I've been very critical of my standards where women are concerned ever since I started workinig for SLICE)

She was TALL with a tiny yet classy ( if that's possible) White Dress on and these (I think) 5 inch heeled Sandals. Her hair was bouncy. If I had paid more attention I'd say she was gorgeous. Nut I didn't. I was on the phone.

She entered, with 2 of her friends, laughing and smiling, as women often enter places. However i didn't notice her entrance. I was, as I said, on the phone. I was also on my laptop at the same time. I wore a white Tee with blue accent, Jeans, Blue Puma Roma's and my (Sort of) patented Straw Fedora. As it were I was engrossed in my digital activities and having missed said entrance I only looked up to see 3 older men who had apparently offended said strumpet. I look up to see her face. She looked at m with the "Did hey just say that to me?" look in her eye.

I looked back with the " I dunno? Did they?" look. She strode away. But not before she scanned me up and down. That moment took 2 seconds, as such moments do, then I returned to my precious engagements. It was at this point that I noticed those legs I was talking about earlier. She had enough of those for 2 women. Toned and lovely, how I like em.

During this time, my concentration has bareley shifted from my sister complaining in my ear and booking a flight on Priceline, so I could have quickly forgotten about miss "Tiny White Dress" If she hadnt come back...

I was sitting on the couch in the front of the restaurant, which is for lounging and for eating. It's a really big couch so theres room for everyone. So of course Miss White dress finds a way to be sitting right next to me, making flirty, cautious eye contact. I'm still not fully interested in her, so I continue blah blah blahhhing away on my cell. However I notice that she is checking over my shoulder to peep my computer screen. She gets this look on her face like Aha! As if she's impressed. Now far be it from my narccisistic side to deny a lady a glimpse of The Gift, so my gears start turning and I almost talk to her.... Until I hear this:

" Girrrrrrlllll I need one of y'all to get me some shoes. These ain't gone work!"

"They don't fit? Can you walk in them"

"Nooooo I think I might break my ankle!"

My interest shot from 45% to ZERO % in 1.5 seconds. Those shoes? Thooooose shoes? Those elaborate ass fuck me pumps? You walked out the house in shoes to get attention, then halfway through can't soldier through? Naaahhhhh Not me, not the Kid. I don't Fux With pretenders.

Nowhere in my outward or inward appearance do I pretend just to interest the opposite sex. My Hat? I really like this hat. My Phone conversation to the Virgin islands? I really do have people there to talk to. Me booking a flight? I really am taking a trip.

Her? Hair? Fake. Outfit? It screamed " LOOK AT ME! DESIRE ME!". Now ya Shoes are for pretend to? Damn. What's Genuine about you then? Why are so many women pretending? You know what's attractive to me? A Fully grown, fully realized woman.

Why pretend? Only Boys still Play with Imaginary friends.....

.....TheGift

My Life x3 in the Sunshine

To be infused with purpose again would be epic. At current purpose is surrounding me. Nipping at my heels. annoying me, really. To be honest....

My Mother told me to seek my life path in those the creator has placed in my path and if we are all on the same journey, to learn from what they do. I feel like a rookie who has never thrown a football before and gets pushed onto the field and gets handed the ball. No matter my athletic ability, pain is imminent.

Luckily I'm placed back onto a path that is familiar to me. A musical one. It has done my heart sooooooo much good to be placed in a household with people who are actually benefiting from thier music. I had been subdued with the "Starving Artist" stereotype so long that my musical dreams had been all but crushed, and now that I see it in front o me I feel my hopes returning....

I love what my Family (New and Old)is doing with their talents. most recently my Brother has been grinding with his latest Musical release "The reminiscent Victorious" and Has gotten over 1,000 downloasd! which in Indie numbers is pretty friggin huge!

He's inspiring me to push forward with my latest project to see if writing is my calling iin this industry. I think it is. Writing is what I do, but only you, the reader can be the judge of that.

Anyway I'm blessed, loved and Highly favored

\||/ Watcheables\||/ Boondocks Season 3 Http://www.Adultswim.com

\||/ Audibles\||/ The reminiscent Victorious LP now on Sale! Support! Http://www.yoashvictorious.bandcamp.com

\||/ Mandibles\||/ Mock Chicken Sandwiches and Fries #VeganLife!

Love you all! Che....TehGift

You'll understand when you're older

Have you ever felt really old? Like..... Ancient? That happened to me this morning. I was thinking
... And I drifted into a timeless space. I felt like I had done all this before and I'll do it all again. It felt as if time was meaningless to me. I don't know if I was 100 or 10,000 yrs old. It didn't matter. I saw the folly of man. And the youth of my peers. I thought of you. Your soul is just as old as mine.

There has always been a yesterday and tomorrow will always come.
We as humans must learn to think in truly long terms.

...TheGift

Debunking the Christian Mythos: My responsibility?

Debunking the Christian Mythos:My responsibility or not?

Recently I told some Christian friends of mine: F*VCK CHRISTMAS! I'm the super Grinch!

They said "Man you don't do Nothing! What do 'y'all' celebrate?
I say "How bout all the holy days that's actually IN the Bible??
The whole room got quiet.
This has been my life. Filled with fun facts about the lies that Christian leadership has placed on thief subjects for centuries, I find myself at war with their simplistic,poorly researched view of the Bible. Quite often a Christians sheer willingness to remain ignorant will drive me over the edge.

Recently however, I've taken into consideration what my role truly is in debunking the mythology surrounding misguided Christians.

The truth is, Christianity means little to nothing to me. I was born Muslim and have been armed with the same tools to help Muslims out of ignorance Christians. The ministry of Jesus Christ has no special meaning to me, I'm closer to the legacy of Muhammad. I've never celebrated Christmas,so when I inform a Christian of its pagan non biblical origins I have no empathy for them.

Maybe I should assist my Islamic brethren where I find them in need of truth.
I just know, come Crimmuh time none of my friends should start with me.

Funk Christmas

.....TheGift

#SecretDreams Let's Play.....

Soooooo me and My Brothers have a secret dream.... a Dream of Music,Passion and adventure. We're gonna do something that we've never seen anyone do before and we might get disowned for it, but I feel like as long as I have them, we'll be good.

You know how I'm really into Anime and stuff? Well I think Anime is a gateway drug to Japanese culture cuz now, from listening to the Theme music, We're into Japanese Music. We want to learn to play our favorite anime themes. It's gonna be sooooooo epic. Nothing to serious. 15-20 covers.I love everything about Japan so this right here is gonna be fun! I'm learning Guitar. Yosafe is on Keys and Adam is our Drummer. Idk if Yoash will want any part of this, he might be too cool for his shit. BUT I"M NOT! I told Yosafe that if we get really good then we can go play in Japan. Think about it, how many Black Japanese cover bands are there?>>>>>>>Zero. We in there!

#SecretDreams

\||/Watcheables>>>>Naruto and Naruto Shippudden
\||/Audibles>>>>>

\||/Mandibles>>>>BBQ Tofu
\||/Readables>>>> Rolling Stone Magazine
\||/Actionables>>>>> Go swimming. IT's SUMMER!

....TheGift

WHO Dat, WHO DAT? J. Cole lyrics

Yeah-It's that serious. Check his lyrics. They Mean. I aint never really posted lyrics on tis site but... They been runniing through my head all morning soooo. Here:

Who dat who dat, the nigga you been waitin 4.
I mean the shyt was all bad just a week ago.
Rappers is bull shittin. Fuck it,
I ain’t hatin though
Cuz Now a nigga hot enough to
fuck with one of satin’s hoes.
& She cant tell the difference.
I been through hell conditions.
Wishin for air conditions
feelin God was never listenin.
Now I’m on television
And did I fail to mention?
Your bitch is tired of missionary,
boy you failed the mission.
Speakin of positions Just witness
how i elevated. Real niggas celebrate it, finger-fuck
whoever hate it. My life accelerated,
but had to wait my turn. But then i redecorated,
that means my tables turn. Live life, might as well,
only way to learn. is try and fail clientele
the only way to earn. so if you’re sellin crack..
or if you’re sellin rap. make sure it’s mean
so them fiends keep on trailin back.

(chorus)

The Mind state of a winner.
When you thinkin bout summertime
i’m thinkin bout the winter.
When you thinkin bout breakfast,
I’m heatin up my dinner. I was plottin this
moment back when yall was ridin spinners.
Now I’m a menace. God as my witness, with this pen I’m insane, yup.
Hungry like the nigga who ain’t got the taste of fame yet.
Cloud told me “ain’t you roc? well where the fuck yo chain at?”
Guess it’s somethin like your girl, nigga it aint came yet.
The man make the chain chain dont make the man
how many niggas do we know with hella ice but yet they lame
the cloth from which we came me and them is not the same
Like we all headed to spain, they took the boat i took the plane.Dang
That boy sick.Now Hoes on his joystick. Heatin up like may weather dog
i’m on that floyyd shyt.
Boy stick, to ya day job.
Said you was hot but they lied.
Is that ya girl? Well I just g’d her/jeter no a rod.

(chorus)

(Andre 3000)
Now who else wanna fuck with hollywood cole?!

The lil engine that could
this lil nigga is good
rappers claiming they sick i heal niggas for good
a couple of yall aint took a field trip to the hood
ay me im fresh prince im will smith to the hood Baby!
aint sayin names but we not the same
all that money and the fame dont change the fact that u lame
might wanna grab you a chain wanna tip up your hat
might wanna purchase some game homie your shit is so wack!!!
i got my finger on the trigger tell that nigga hold datt
boy im picture perfect baby you can check the Kodak
hey so anything you can do i can do better
and you chick you can screw i can get wetter
im young black get to live my life on the run!
bet ya bottom dollar before im done
they im the oneeeeeee
yeah nigga im the onee HA!!

J. Cole Does it again! BB GUN is a friggin Genius

So FamI don't know ifyall following the Career of one J. Cole but this kid is the new golden child of Hip-Hop. There ain't nobody touching his style/lyrics/presence/Label(RocNation). I love a cat that plays the gamewell. No Scandals, no rap Beefs just pure skill and the right mentor.

The Golden Path

I like to write.

When the feeling is right, it flows from me like water, these words, people say they like. I've been told I'm a good writer, but I've been told I'm good at a lot of stuff. That doesn't help with my future direction any. I would never wish to be less talented. I love being a Jack of all trades.. but now the words of My Big Cousin Faruq float back to haunt me.... "Don't be a Jack of all trades and a Master of none" bleh. That's exactly where I'm at.

I'm a natural at everything but I've never developed a skill to perfection. I just watched a wonderful 10 minute video with my guy, Will Smith. It was a Mash up called "Will's Wisdom" that cut together several interviews of his in order to display his life philosophies and I was inspired, for I saw myself on that screen.

One of my main problems is that I have always known what I wanted to do... and now I don't. I'm afloat in a sea of possibilities. i feel like Paul Mu'adib of Dune when he first entered the Spice Trance. He could see every single possibility every repercussion of every choice and the sheer weight of the future weighed him down.. He could have been crushed. He had to make a choice. Thats my issue. I never made the choice. I see the endings I see the pitfalls, the ruts, the traps.... Maybe I'm looking for Leo's Golden Path....

But the Golden Path is hard to find. Where the other paths are rivers... the Golden Path is A thread. Hard to see. Like a diamond filament tightrope.... Everything inside of me is screaming... make a move....

.....TheGift

This Resume is kicking My ass

I have been "Writing" this Damn resume forever!

WTH is wrong with me when it comes to Getting a J-O-B???

Just the thought of working for other people physically repulses me. Bile rises to the Back of my throat. My Father did this to me. "Do for Self" was his motto. there used to be little pins, the type no one wears anymore. Little "Do for Self" Buttons on peoples Jackets.

When I got older my Father vehemently denied that he discouraged working for "The Man" and that's when I realized a new truth I stumbled across....

It has to do with Saying and Doing. See My Abba always SAID that the most important thing was to work for self. He never SAID the most important thing was to WORK. So when My entrepreneurial efforts failed and I didn't want to get a "Real Job" he got mad at me. He was frustrated and didn't understand that the full weight of my vehemence towards Working a J-O-B was at least partially on him. I never thought it was extra important to just Work. I alwys worked for for with a cause or If I employed myself, I worked because I liked doing a craft. My work ethic whilst in these ventures is great, but If I don;t have something to work for, I'm fucked.

He had a conversation with me that made me realize where I fucked up at. I wasnt observant enough. My Father was a street Merchant for most of my life. He made good money at it till the money dried up. When He was a street Merchant I recall those as the good old days. I was accustomed to handling a business at a bvery early age. But when the Merchant life dried out, he kept working and I never paid attention. I guess Hindsight is 20/20.

Part of the reason I don't have a "Job" is because I know that I can provide whatever dough I need By myself but I don't believe in Me nymore. thats Why i'm writing this Dumb ass resume. i've got all the skills and experience to start my own restaurant anywhere in the world. yet I'm trying to cookfor other people. WTF is wrong with Me?

...TheGift

Ramblin On a Summer day-ThankMeLater?

Don't you hate when you become the person you used to talk shit about?

I've been blessed on this journey called life to see a bigger picture. It seems like the divine energy doesn't want Me to be close minded because anything I used to hate or talk shit about I've now come full circle to understand and sometimes admire. This revelation only fuels my theory that we only hate things that we despise in ourselves. So now that I'm afloat with no boat and I've lost my holier than thou attitude, what now? If I'm no longer mad at the world what will I do with my rage?

I'm starting to incorporate forced revelation into my life with almost a religious devotion. I figure, if I don't wake myself up then who will right? Everything inside of e is calling for me to leave this continent. My mentor always asks me what am I looking for.... I can never tell him. I'll know when I find it.... But its not here. Its the artist in me. It needs to be moved. I need to shake myself awake.

My Greatest talent is my Ability to learn from scratch or to relearn things that i think I already know. i know that I know enought ot know that i know nothing... You Know? But now that I'm Back at Ground level who will direct me? I don't want to break connectioons with my King.... But No one is where I want to be... No one is who I want to be or is doing what I know I can do.... It's all a little depressing....

I'm right at that Cusp of failure... Not failure at a thing but failure at life. Dead end Job. Worthless Marriage. A spiritual and Mental death looms over me, the likes of which will be difficult to escape. This is the point of rebirth. All I need is a place to be born again.

Whatever I want to do I want it to benefit my nation. At least I know, no matter what I believe personally that my works will benefit the Greater good...

That's me rambling....

\||/ Audibles\||/ Thank Me Now- Drake
\||/ Mandibles\||/ Tofurkey Kielbasa Fajita!
\||/ Readables\||/ The 50th law- Robert Green. Nuff said
\||/Watcheables\||/ Burn Notice....

.....thegift

FOUR LOKO!::: REVELATIONS OF THE ALCOHOLIC NATURE

Ok so I figured something out last night, But first let me walk u through my weekend thus far....

Friday night We snowballed our way into a house party at the crib. Yeah, cuz nobody saw it coming. What did I eat for dinner? Nothing. What did I drink for dinner? Four Loko. Y'all oughta know that Four Loko ain't what you want. After a can of That Spit you'll wanna wash it back wit some Jet engine fuel because you'll beeeeeee: ALL THE WAY TURNT UP! What is it? A 32 oz can of Alcoholic deliciousness that's a mix between Soda and Koolaid and Satans tears. Shared told me it was the Devil's Koolaid. I had 1 and a half. I woke on the Futon looking for my dam ears.

I'm told after waking Up that I gave one wonderful lap dance last night. #Win. Also apparently I had a Megaphone swinging from a doorway screaming YEAH! While Bubbling on someone.

Whole night = Win

We woke up the next morning around 9:30 with people strewn all across the house looking for the answers to important questions (Where did that Patrone come from? Why is it empty? Whose earring is this? Is that a Mcdonalds apple pie? #Munching)
So Bias wakes the band up then says to me "We might need u to shoot this video" Whaaat!?? I'M STILL DRUNK! We get to little 5 points and I'm still leaning but the shoot goes fine. Finished it at the crib. It was Hot as Rabid monkey balls so I lost my shirt. Got done before 1:00 and I was still tipsy!

I left again and came back and took a nap!

Night #2

Ok so what's the agenda for Saturday night?

House party for food (Vegan? Doubtful)

Then the Club where we'll be in VIP and all THE drinks will be free...... Dangerous.

TO BE CONTINUED!

NEXT ISSUE: Jaggerbombs::Snowbunnies::: Amazonian Model Chicks::::Poetry:::::And Mooorrre

I had a revalation!

....TheGift

Ask some questions dammit

First Blog of May and I gotta tell ya...... I have no idea what I'm doing.

I mean sure, I have that look like I have it all together and Shit but honestly.... I kind of wish someone would pay closer attention and ask deeper questions. What kind of questions? Hmmmm....

I'm gonna interview myself as an example here folks. I'll also be narrating with some pointers on how to navigate through my BS ok? Pay attention.

Example Questioner: So how you been?

Yoehzer: Oh I've been cool. Just making it you know how it is. How bout you?

{Now Watch out here, cuz I just pulled a classic misdirection. You're here to ask about me and I just gave you a way out by. Flipping it on you. If you're smart or concerned you'll flip it right back to me ok?}

EQ: I'm fine. So what have you been doing the last week or so?

Yo: I've been here and there visiting friends mainly. I don't really have a routine.

EQ: Oh? Are you working?

Yo: Not at present.

EQ: Why not?

Yo: Why exactly are you asking all these questions?

{See what I've done here? I just got confrontational on that azz! Just keep pressing! Go in forth kill!}

I hope this helps any one who wants to learn a person. Don't take no for answer. Dig deep. They'll. Appreciate it later

...TheGift

Love Lost Won and In betwitxt the Beginning- RAAAANNTTT

Sooooo I’m back Ranters! There’s no particular reason that I haven’t been writing, except that life sat on my chest and has barking in my ear for a week or so. But I can’t let that stop me from writing. Not ever. If you love something you should do it every day. Every single day and it’s been days since I wrote a post. I did write or rather co-write a poem recently though...I think that counts….

So what have I been blogging about lately? I have been doing topics right? I think it’s time for a good old fashioned rant. No purpose, No coherent meaning. I’ll just shovel the shit out of my brain and let you sort it out.

WTF is love? I just had an interesting conversation last night with my friend Natalie about the nature of love and relationships and I spoke on a couple of points that I found surprising namely, the following:

My longest relationship has been only 6 months: 6 Months? This from the guy who wants a mandatory 5 year pursuit before he marries a woman and I can’t manage a year’s worth of relationship? That’s effing terrible. I don’t know what it is, but my girlfriends never seem to pan out. Now I’m stuck trying to figure out if I actually need to try and press a relationship beyond 6 months or if that’s just me forcing it?

Fear and Longing: I’m learning new levels to the term, “Be careful what you wish for” every day. What you wish for will come back to bite you in the end. But does that mean we shouldn’t wish at all? For instance, I used to and sort of still do wish to be feared. This was and is for a multiplicity of reasons, the first being that I think its cool and the second being that I think if more people were afraid of me then more would be safe from me. But now it hurts a little. I’m feared for strange reasons. Not because I’m physically intimidating (I am not) But because I have silver tongue and I’m not to be trusted. I’m feared because I’m too smart and If and when I get my hands on the power I desire, I may cause some sort of irreparable damage. I’m feared by powerful women because though I look good, they are afraid of losing some of their power to me. I’m feared because I’m a soldier without a cause and all I long for is to be understood. I long for forgiveness for sins committed and sins I may still commit. I long for acceptance. I long for understanding. I long to be left. Alone. I long for Companionship. I long to find someone to pour my love into but the ones I keep picking don’t measure up.

Time and Penance: So is it too late? Am I running out of time? For my heart I mean. I feel like there might be a time limit for me to love or else I will let the power trippy side of me take over and it won’t be pretty. If that happens I can only love after a fashion and I will only develop a companion who is integral to me attaining and maintaining my own power. It won’t have anything to do with love and it won’t be rosy or pretty like in the movies. Maybe things will be different when I’m 30…..
I’m tired of this subject matter now…

\||/ Audibles\||/ AFI Album December Underground. Love like Winter is probably My favorite =)

\||/ Readables\||/ The Newspaper! I like the AJC even if their new layout looks like USA Today =(

\||/Mandibles\||/ Vegan Cheesecake- its effing delicious

…TheGift

April Posting Schmosting

April Blog season

My bad y'all I been off for April Blog season. Been off my posting game. Besides there'd be less ranting going on and more lamentations than anything. Suffice it to say that April has been.... Interesting...

I'VE actually got some backlogs that I started but never finished. So how bout this? How bout I'll kick u guys all the posts I missed before April ends? Let's see..... I was up to twice per week so.. 8. I think I owe 5 more. Ok. Great.

QUICKRANT!!! When are these Dread headed Muhfuckin Atlanta Niggas gonna quit disgracing my fuckin city and all die out in one massive gunbattle? Or dissspear into a college or something? Damn. I learned long ago not to expect individuality from people because its not in thier nature... But there's a few groups that we can do without.

©DREADHEADS

Obviously locks don't make you evil. However, Nowadays Niggers of the umpteenth level of niggerdom have adopted the hairstyle and in Atlanta all the same mannerisms. They say "Swag" every 13 seconds, Talk like their dictionary at home was for decoration and replace engagement rings with children to seal a commitment. They just gotta fuckin GO!

©Futuristic Swag Niggas

These are a mix between regular Niggas and skinny jean niggas. They have mohawks. They gotta go too.

©Barbies

Nicki Minaj did this to us. Sever the head and the rest will scatter.

That mini rant made me mad. I'm leaving now.

\||/Watchables\||/ "Dead like me" On Hulu.com. The show is kind of morbid and kind of funny. I like it =)

...TheGift

Low Key Review: The HUndred Thousand Kingdoms

Ok so I'm guilty. I judged a book by its cover. I was perusing my local library, bored out of my mind and I picked this book up.

"The Hundred Thousand Kingdoms?" I thought. "This might be cool." I had absolutely no idea what I was getting myself into. I started reading this book yesterday at around 2:00 PM..... I finished it this morning. All 410 pages of it plus an interview and a preview of the next book in the series. And now I'm salivating in anticipation for its release in the fall

(Sidenote- How awesome is it that e won't have to wait for a a year or more for the next book? Unlike SOME authors I know! *Side-eye* at Christopher Paolini and J.K. Rowling, Ms. Jemisin doesn't want us to DIE of anticipation!) But I digress. To the Book Review!

100K (As the book is so affectionately called by its author on her website) is a first person account of A beautiful heroine Yeine(YAY-neh) Darr from the Barbaric North. Her past heritage catches up to her In an unexpected way when her Grandfather(whom No one ever argues with) Summons her to the Faraway city of Sky with an important announcement. He wants her, who he has never met or spoken to or even acknowledged before, to succeed him to the Throne of the Hundred Thousand Kingdoms.

This much you can learn from the cover and the teaser first page. After that is where I was pleasantly surprised that even this bold statement had far far far underestimated the scope of this beautiful story.

Engaging is the way that I describe all of my favorite writers. They have a way of engaging all 5 of your senses and even the 6th sense for those who have it, in order to totally immerse you into the world that they have created. This is what this literary Master N.K. Jemisin has so expertly done with 100K. She draws us into the politically charged world of the Amn who are the ruling class of all the world. While drawing on all of the older experiences with cut throat nobility of our own history (See- Entire History of Courtesans in France and Great Britain) she adds entirely new elements that give this world a life of its own.

We find out soon that Yeine is a pawn in someones deadly game and she is desperate to find out how to leave the playing field alive. She meets dangerous Family members and her own personal antagonista is her own Cousin, Scimina, whose own brand of delicate and delicious cruelty is nothing short of masterful, in the way she is painted as the classic evil yet understandably so.

Yeine finds out so much and discovers it all so fast that it is hard to believe that the entire account merely spans about 2 weeks in her life, which is another thing I love about the book, it gives you such an awesome sense of real-time.

I could ramble on and on about this book suffice it to say these last few things::::::

\/ Characters\/ Stunning Character development is displayed through out the entire work, my favorite examples of which are the Gods Nahadoth and Seigh. You would expect a God to have a complex character right? They do.

\/Palace Politics\/ I've been fascinated with Palace politics every since I first read "The 48 Laws of Power" and Jemisin seems to have read it too the way the power plays are made as well as reminiscent of Sun Tzu's "The art of War"

\/ Writing\/ I cannot express enough the overall capability of the Writer! She makes everything so...Complete! All around well rounded.

Jemisin is a genius and if anyone is deserving of the continuing legacy of Octavia Butler, I say its her.

Check out her Website. She blogs regularly. http://nkjemisin.com/

...TheGift

Lowkey review: Diggy Simmons' First Flight to the Future of Hip-Hop

My brother told me I gotta check out this kid Diggy Simmons new mix-tape. So I did. Before I give y'all what I think I'll tell you about my first thoughts.

\||/ First thoughts\||/

Is that Run's son?

How old is this kid?

Whats all his buzz from? The TV show?

He prolly getting a leg up from his dad right?

\||/

The fist song I heard from him was "Flow Stoopid" a Freestyle to Nas' Made you look. What did I think? We have a Problem (First Flight Track 8). This kid is pure raw talent. His flow is quick and witty. His references are relevant and He isn't trying to copy cat off anybody in the game. To be truthful, I can't even make a comparison of him to any rapper I can think of. He's unique and he's so solid in his own identity that he doesn't need anyone else to validate him.

This kid Diggy comes off with a type of humility and honesty that no one would ever expect from a rich Kid. Some would ask why he wants to rap? He's not street, he's not hood, or gangsta so why rap? He doesn't have to???

ENTER THE NEW SCHOOL:

We've been seeing this new school of rappers for a while now and Diggy is just continuing on the legacy Of Kanye, Kid Cudi, Lupe Fiasco Wale and others who have proven that rap has no boundaries. They break all the stereotypes of what rap and hip hop has been and are become the future of this game. And we are loving every minute of it.

To me, Diggy proves that Talent can't be bought. If you are talented and youve honed your talents, then you will be recognized as having talent. First Flight (Download link) is a top notch Mixtape that comes out swinging and doesn't stop. A lot of the tracks are Album quality. Some people might say "He's got all the best equipment and his dad has a million dollar studio" I say check the video below. You cannot buy talent. Certainly you can make talent sound better with an expensive microphone, but I ask you, Why is Diggy better than his brother Jo Jo? they got the same contacts.

Diggy Embraces Rap as an Art form which is something you see so precious little of. He's putting his entire age group to shame and I hope he can keep his work ethic up over at Atlantic Records who he just signed a deal with. I'm rooting for the kid.

....TheGift

Diggy - Made you look Freestyle (Flow Stoopid) from Diggy Simmons on Vimeo.

Can I get A Window seat?

"So, presently i’m standing
Here right now
You’re so demanding
Tell me what u want from me"___Erykah Badu "Window Seat"

My first introduction to "Window Seat" Was my friend Keresten calling me:

" My Ni@@a have you seen that new Erykah Badu Video?"

"Nah I hadnt heard"

"Maaaaaannn I aint even know Sistahs get thicker with age!"

Thats the first phenomenon of the video. Its full blasted nudity. Its Guerilla video strategy ( It was filmed in one take, with no warning in downtown Dallas.) The fact that Erykah seems to have developed a Body since she first came into the game. We all used to think she was just a skinny girl. She had a lil' boy body is what they said. Now she got a 'fatty' and folks are paying attention.

as I was prepared for all of this, by the time I got around to watching the video I could dig a little deeper. My first thoughts are as follows...

WTF is she wearing? Black over coat with a purple hoodie? Whea dey do dat at?

Look at that guy in the red following her. is he part of the script? look he ust gave up picking up her clothes!

Whats with the cap on her head?

Wtf kinda t-shirt is that? was that extra necessary? I heard there was a message here somewhere, is it "What not to wear?"

Ohhhh snap she gone take it off?

Owwwww she gotta booty now!

Haha look at those white folks! They look nervous as hell!

WT? she just got shot?

Whats that blue "blood" say?

Whats Groupthink?.....

Wow....that was thought provoking....

Contrary to some folks beliefs, I'm not into this video for the pornographic aspects. She made a statement. A very strong statement. I don't think this was a cheap thrill for her. I don't think its sole purpose was to put Erykah back on the map, I respect her will to do something different. anytime you break the mold, you will have those who Hate it and those who love it.

"Everybody feel a way about 'Ye but at least yall feel something"___Kanye West

Upon reading the lyrics I see a theme, somewhat that which Kanye West expressed in a lot of his recent songs, Sometimes you just wanna do art. You don't wanna be bothered by the flashing lights, but an artist has a need to be seen. So youre damned if you go and damned if you stay. It's all about finding that perfect balance as an artist.

I hope Badu and Mr. West find that balance. I think andre 3000 found it a long time ago but not many can find it. they are either in the game or out of it.

I enclosed the song but not the provocative video, honeslty I find more value in the song on its own, but please, go and look for the video, I just saw it on Vh1 Soul the other day, so its out there. Is on her official Website as well at>>> http://www.erykahbadu.com/ <<<<>>> http://www.erykah-badu.com/<<<<<

I love her! Imma get me a t-shirt or sum!

Ciao!

...TheGift

At Rest: Photo Blogging

At Rest

So I decided to have another go at my bid as an amateur photographer. I wanted the days photos to have a theme and I found my inspiration as I was walking past a cemetery in Lagrange. "At rest" I liked it and the idea started to take form over the course of the day as I found things that were At rest. Here we find people At Rest. I like this picture because it shows the scope of the entire cemetery (Is everybody in Lagrange buried here?)

Now onto something a little less depressing! As the At rest concept started to gather some steam, I realized that there are plenty of things at rest in a town like Lagrange. In a recession so many things are abandoned. Like a Restaurant per se.

This is the Golden Corral in Lagrange. It was closed before I got here. If this had been Atlanta, someone would have moved in here already but I suppose the Corral is a dying breed. Maybe I should contrast the dead feeling of it with pics of the Cracker Barrel?

This last one is my Favorite pic of the day. I just think it says something poignant about a restaurant when the trash cans look destitute. This place may not be resting. It might be dead.

More from the At rest series at a later date! Ciao!...TheGift

Where do you draw the Line twix the Fat and the Thick?

Yep, this is a promo shot right here for Michaela's blog click the link cuz this whole post is musing about her post At the link: Click it! CLICK!.....I'm waiting....

>>>>>>>>http://divalicious813.blogspot.com/2010/03/ruthless-thoughts.html <<<<<<<<<<< ...ok lets begin. So here's my question "Where do you draw the line between FAT and THICK? One word "GROTESQUE"<<>>In my opinion, plenty of folks are confused. So I can only give you what I think. I think a lot of "Thick" girls are fat and a lot of "fat" girls are disillusioned. I know I know "Ouch that's harsh" but this is the Panorantic view people I call em like I sees em.

I draw the line at "GROTESQUE" fat and OBVIOUS obesity. Lets get in some definitions here:


gro·tesque 

 /groʊˈtɛsk/ Show Spelled[groh-tesk] Show IPA
–adjective
1.
odd or unnatural in shape, appearance, or character; fantastically ugly or absurd; bizarre.

Hmmm.... Bizarre? Yep that's it. I live by the principle of Nature that things that are not natural the human body rejects it. The reason people say "Ewwwww" upon seeing someones brains spilling out of their heads must be because this was something that is out of order, that should never happen. At the sight of this bizarre occurrence we are repulsed, naturally. Whats that got to do with Fat people? Well I'll quote my favorite monologue

"Every mammal on this planet instinctively develops a natural equilibrium with the surrounding environment.But you humans do not......"___Agent Smith from The Matrix

Someone whose body has clearly left the normal natural boundaries of the human condition is immediately viewed as Bizarre. They leave the realm of "Who" and enter the realm of "it" now I try me hardest not to discriminate. But damn. Sometimes its unnecessary for you to carry 200 pounds of extra....you.

My standard is a life standard. Someone is Bizarre to me who does not value life. Its been proven that those who are grotesquely over weight live shorter more laborious lives. Their arteries were never designed to pump that much blood. I enjoy equilibrium. I enjoy balance. any opposing forces to equilibrium and balances must be challenged.

Now, some women are actually bigger, withing their bone structure and all that, but these People owe it to themselves to discover what their own individual health to weight ratio is.

These are just my thoughts though..maybe I'll come up with a politically correct article and write all this again so nobody gets offended.

actually we're in America now so pretty much any weight goes. I just don't want people involved in the "Big is Beautiful" (and it is) Movement to get carried away cuz you know whats really beautiful? Health is Beautiful.

...TheGift

P.s. All that to the side... What about African Women? I fully intend to marry an African woman and they Are all "thick" so what about them? My answer there is that there is a balance. Black women in General from Brazil to America to African are all Bigger than the Average woman. I just say bring your body into equilibrium with itself. Once that is done. You won't be "Over-weight" you'll be the 'Right" weight.

...Ciao!

Prom-Changes-Flow river,Flow

I told one of my Surrogate younger brothers recently

"One o the greatest lessons you will learn in your lifetime is that Life is like a river. It keeps going and changing and moving and its never the same twice. It goes on."

I told him that even though that sounds simple, all the greatest realizations are just that. Simple.
He was concerned because he would be changing schools. He was leaving his friends and his life and worst of all, his prom! So I gave him one o my hard earned pearls of wisdom (I only have about 2 or 3 of those. All my other "Wisdom" comes from my wise teachers)

For a son of God there is always an opportunity for another Prom or another friend or a beter experience. Thats the problem with so many Americans now. America is so rigid. Here "Life is a b**** and then you die". You are only allowed a few classic great moments, when every moment should be a great one. Here is the short list of American Great Moments:

EVENTS:

Prom---YIPPEE!! This is the happiest day of my life!

Highschool Graduation--- YIPEE!! This is the greatest day of my life!

College Graduation---YIPEE!! this is the NEW greatest day of my life!

Marriage---YIPPEE!!! This is....the..new...last greatest....day...of my life =(

AGES:

Birth---YAY I'm Born!

1st B-day-Yay its a year!

(girls) 16----Sweet sixteen!

18---Yay I'm a grownup!(not really)

21---Yay I can drink now!

wait...no more awesome Ages?

Somewhere in ther you have kids and you celebrate them..but thats like...It. Why not celebrate always? Why not create an Annual Prom for everybody who didnt get to go? Theres plenty of us I assure you. Why not make your life legendary?

The truth is that we are also little rivers in the big river of life. always changing, always growing always flowing. So if this life doesnt suit you...keep flowing. It will.

...TheGift

Che Guevara and The NUmber 39

Who is Che?



I have always asked this question.

Is he a man? Is he a legend? Whazzup with the T-Shirts?

So I recently began to study and Absorb Che. Che The Mighty. Che The Magnificent.
Che The Impregnable. Che The Thinker. Wow. CHe was Huge. and Now He is even Bigger.

Now I question why is it that the Pan africans who Taught and Trained me never
told me to study Guevara. His ody of literature and Revolutionary thought is ingenius
Clearly before his time. But At the proper time. For who of the Mightiest revolutionaries
Wasnt before his time? Thats our job. To lead time. To Be recognized after we cease to Fight
For the Fight that so Many died for......

I feel connected to Che. Not because of race or ideology but by the Number 39.

Why is this umber so important you ask?
Martin Died at 39
Malcolm Died at 39

We learned as Hebrews that the signifigance of this number is its relationship to
the next number. 40. Every Great Idea or society or civilization BOOMS after its 40th year
and these revolutionaries were Stopped before that mark.
and Then I read Che's age at death. 39.

I know some Revolutionaries who made it past that age and are still fighting that fight though.

I intend to become one of thier number.

I read the speech that Fidel Castro Gave at the Funeral Services of Che Guevara
and he spoke of Che Being of Impeccable Charachter and Extraordinary Strength.
Truly, Che was a Super Human who trancended the Pitfalls and Downfalls of Man.
His record of service was clean. and When He could have taken a cushy Office Job, He did not.

Che Is a Hero. And Im not even done reading his books yet

.....TheGift

Have you wver held the world in the palm of your hands? Or the weight of it on your shoulders? Well I have. Most of my life. All of my life I have been A key. The







Answer. The Cure. The solution. Everyone has always known that I would transend Limitations and be a part of something worthy of my names.















When my mother named me she knew I would lead. My first name was Tijani. In Arabic it means "He who wears the crown" She saw a need for divine leadership on this earth and she prayes for a son capable of filling this need. So that became my destiny and I have groomed toward the goal of guiding mankind to betterment eversince.















Ive been told that Im arrogant. I think Imvjust assured. One of my favorite Kanye West lines goes















"The preacher said We need leaders and my body got stiff like a parapalegic"

There are very few of us who know what we are called for. If you have that gift. dont be ashamed. Do your duty. No matter what. I rest assured,confidently that I will be successful in my mission.

Have you ever been certain that you need more training? That you need to be refined? Many people go to college to become refined. But what college is there to become refined mentally? Where is there a college for real Nation Builders? Where is there a school for the leaders of tomorrow? There are many that make that claim but I see no such results.

The Men and Women of these schools leave and continue to propegate the mind that they recieved within. In whichever cracked society it was built in. So I set out to attend a Unique institution and jokingly refer to it as the University of Yoehzer. Wherin I gather my teachers to myself through Yah and continue to become the man I am meant to be.

I am about to start my Senior year as an Undergrad. Ill invite you to graduation.

...TheGift

\||/ Audibles: Graduation by Kanye West

\||/Readables: The Autobiography of Malcolm X

\||/ Watchables: Chronicles of Riddick

\||/ Munchables: Israelite Rice cakes

Thoughts and #LowKey review on: Why Your DNA Isn't Your Destiny

Thoughts and #LowKey review on: Why Your DNA Isn't Your Destiny
By John Cloud
“Darwin was a misguided White Man who, upon discounting those things he could not see, hear nor understand, just started Making Stuff up.” ____TheGift

If Scientists had Gangs, that Statement might get me shot. Alas they do have shots amongst the Doctors but their Hippocratic Oath prevents them from forcing “Death by Needle” (AKA H1N1 Vacc.) upon me so HA!

In all seriousness though, In conversing with My Mentor This Morning he directed me to this article and asked to know what I thought about it, In relation to My own personal development. I later thought instead of calling him and telling him that I’d just turn it into a Blog post and share My thoughts with ALL (5) of You!

I begin:

We are all flawed. No I don’t believe we are flawed cuz Jesus said so. I really doubt he meant it like that. We are Flawed because we were born into a flawed society. We are plagued with and and Even and it wears heavily on us all as individuals.

Enter Epigenetics (Here is where the Darwin Comment becomes relevant) Cloud says:

“At its most basic, Epigenetics is the study of changes in gene activity that do not involve alterations to the genetic code but still get passed down to at least one successive generation. These patterns of gene expression are governed by the cellular material — the epigenome — that sits on top of the genome, just outside it (hence the prefix epi-, which means above).”


To get to the point, Epigenetics proves that Your GENES can Be Affected through your DIRECT HERIDITARY LINE!

This Trumps Darwinian Theory which states that it takes MANY MANY years in order for Genes to Change By Natural Selection. The Changes in this Article have been Observed in as little as 40 years! #TAKETHATDARWIN

This means that things that your Father or Mother did when they were your Affects the basic code of your Genetic structure. Your Father Smoked? You’re at risk for Obesity. Wow. I’ll let you read this AMAZING article yourself (Read more: http://www.time.com/time/health/article/0,8599,1951968-1,00.html#ixzz0g155ltKG) but here are a few of my personal thoughts:

1. The First thing that came to Mind when reading about Genome changes through Generation and its effect even on Memory was that Yahwah le Yisrael has always been know to afflict several Generations with the same Punishment, thereby placing an entire Peoples Genetic Memory Under specific Stressors in order to Change their Gene Pattern. Wow.


A. Subsequently this means that In order to lift these specific Genetic Markers we would then have to Undergo several Generations of Redevelopment in order to return to our original state of Being and Greater(Hopefully having retained the Proper Memory Markers so that we don’t genetically forget why we were being Punished)

B. This also points as many other things do To Our Yah being (Of Course) The Master of Science. Him having laid these laws in advance and us (Mainly these Darwinist Scientists) Finding out all late.

2. On a Personal Note having seen what the Article says about direct Hereditary lineage, I am personally prone to My own Fathers Habits and Behavior Patterns. So like The Bene Gesserit from Dune I find it necessary through discipline and training to 1 by 1 remove all “lesser” Traits for the good of my whole Lineage.

3. What if Tiger Woods has a Genetic Predisposition to say Stupid things, Hold Stupid Press Conferences and Try and *Weezy Voice* F*CK URRYYY (white) GURL IN THA WORLD?

A. Lets Examine: His Daddy didn’t Like Black Women (He Married an Asian)

B. He’s never been vocal about Himself (His Pops don’t talk Much either)

C. His Father Cheated( I don’t Know if Tiger So much “Cheated” as he “Smashed Everything with a Vagina that wasn’t Nailed Down”


I’m #Just Sayin. Think About it. Blame it On Epigenetics? Maybe His DNA was his destiny? Maybe He’s just weak? Maybe the Establishment set Him up…to Fall….In several Women….Repeatedly…..

Or Maybe He’s Just Dumb (My Personal Favorite)

Whatever it was, I won’t let My genetic Markers Create My Path and Neither Will My Sons.

…..TheGift

Changing up the Energy

Know whats amazing? Energy. Its all around us and its everything. Now, Lemme make that Make some sense and pull it into context....


Every individual has the power to manipulate thier own environment at will through a change in thier Outlook and thought Patterns. Thats right. You can manipulate the world with your mind. Those of us experienced in spirituality are not surprised but there are others who don't know how to tap into this power. (I'm bringing it in I promise)

For the last few months or so My sleep pattern has been Crazy. Id stay up till 4:30 am or so and wouldnt wake up till after 12:00. This isnt How I was raised. The way I was raised youre supposed to rise before the Sun everyday. Well a couple of days ago I decided to crack down. Enough was enough. Yesterday I got up at 7:30 and got my shit together EARLY and you know what? I'm a morning person. I had forgotten that about myself.

The Energy floating around in the Morning is OUTSTANDING! Even on Twitter! I just started tweeting and I see that its evident that when you #TwitterAfterDark you can expect some things of a slightly differrent nature.More sexual if you catch my drift. But Tweeting this morning @7 AM was AWESOME! everybody was so Inspiring! as a matter of Face right Now Positive Energy is trending on Twitter! Isnt that Amazing?

Not only that but This morning I woke up atr around 6:10 and decided to stay up. Better than that I decided to Pray. Something I havent done in Forever. After I was done lifting the name of Yah I tweeted with @SFReynolds about international Travel. His advice was that I should really make my international travel travel dreams into reality! Do you know that now 1 HOUR LATER My mentor called me with a way for me to Go To Israel? See how the Energy moves?


Stay Positive. I promise it Helps.

Yah Helps those who are willing to align with his Purpose.
Change your life.

.....TheGift

PAPA I DONT WANT MYSPACE TO DIE!

      Ok So Its Myspace. I was 13 or 14 when I started and just like EVERY SINGLE othe Social Networking Site I was Totally against it. Totally. But I got bored one day and decided to give it a shot and got myself HOOKED! What a rush! Images sounds friends and everything at the click of a button. WHO KNEW?

  

     Fast Foward to today and Myspace is dying. Plenty People are still asking the question: IS MYSPACE RELEVANT?

   Heres My answer, Yes and No. Confused?

    Myspace is relevant for a couple of reasons

1. They have THE Largest social Network Online and they are still growing. Meaning that regardless of whether or not you Use it, EVERYONE has a Myspace page.

2.They are an Industry standard. Meaning that in the Music Business execs Who arent Absoluteley Current with the times (Most of them Are old) WILL LOOK FOR A MYSPACE PAGE

3. They Hold Weight. Myspace is the Modern Father of Social Networking. They have the Power to do anything they want. Its part of the Percs. Think about Macintosh Computers. They started something big. Many people said they were irrelevant. Jobs took a breather and came back Stronger than ever and is now so relevant he might Just be HYPERrelevant.

Never doubt the power of a good comeback.

Today as I was having this conversation via My twitter (damn 140 charachters) I realized why I was fighting for Myspaces survival. Because I would really hate to see it go. Sadly Facebook and Twitter are contributing to Its destruction. But....

I DON'T WANT MYSPACE TO DIE!

I guess we have to flow with the times though, I just wanted to give you gus some of My thoughts on the Matter.

...Thegift

Mural Painting.

I want to Paint a Mural.

As Big as The Frigiin Sky.

No...Seriously. I who have never really painted before or have any experience with a brush. I would like to paint a Mural thats just....ME. I cant quite see it yet but I can feel it watching me.
Id like to find a Burnt out wall in Atlanta upon my return and paint the most beautiful thing that my world can sustain. And then Imma cross that off my Bucket list.

Art is a Gift. Share it. I have NOT shared my Gifts enough. Some would say I'm crazy. Some will say...Can you even Draw? A little. But I'm a visionary. a little thingk like artistic ability would never stop a true artist from producing. I imagine this mural may take a lot out of me though. After it leaves my body I might sleep for 3 weeks.

Look out for me

I'm

...TheGift

AAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!

Ahem.....

AAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!

Is that a feeling? Like is that an emotion or an action or a verb? Have you ever wanted to shout at the universe? Have you ever wished you had the lung capacity to Bellow a cry into the ethos that would last for years and echo for an eternity?

Have you ever wanted to battle cry into the universe? I have. I'm at war with everything and I intend to win. That's why I wanna scream. I think I will actually. Hold on.

(Goes outside, in the cold with an A-shirt on......leaves phone......Picks up phone,slightly refreshed) I honetly think that one of Man's basic instincts is to yell. A long bellow to show that the challenge is accepted.

Become a reformer of society and Master of the Universe you say? I accept.Grrrrrrrrr

....TheGift
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